I'm surprised how quickly I can go from loving being here to wanting to be back home nearer my girls and parents. I absolutely love Bangladesh, I love the community and liveliness, I love that we are useful and can contribute to a mission that has been here for 150 years, I love that we can use our skills to help others, I love that our boys also get to contribute and experience a different culture, I love where we live and that it's beside a pond, I love that I can sit on the veranda and work on my laptop while looking at the birds and kids swimming in the pond, I love the people here and the friends that we have made, I love buying food at markets and that treats are treats that we need to make a 3hr launch trip to get so that we appreciate them. I love that we have no hot water and things are simple. The only problem is that our girls and parents are not here. If I could bring all our friends and family to be here too then it would be perfect. I'm not sure everyone would share my love for being here or see the beauty in the things that I see but for me this is wonderful.
So in one day I can wake up one morning feeling like I could live here forever and then by lunch time I'm feeling guilty that I'm not home nearer our family and that we should only stay for our allotted one year visa. I guess that being a Mum has been what I have done for the last 23 years and I've not just been a typical Mum, I've been a homeschool Mum wth a pretty tight knit bunch of kids who are all very capable and independent but who still need their parents from time to time. I'm also aware that our parents are not getting any younger. I'm the only surviving sibling to be there for my parents and that is very important to me. They are still in good health and not needing me yet but I also don't want to miss out on their good years. So this is where the pull wrenches me at times. Our eldest Son is also going to be returning to NZ in May and so that's one more child not with us. I know that for us to be here it needs to be a very very clear call of God and for now, that's what we have. As the months pass quickly we will need to sort out what happens once our visa comes to an end.
So in one day I can wake up one morning feeling like I could live here forever and then by lunch time I'm feeling guilty that I'm not home nearer our family and that we should only stay for our allotted one year visa. I guess that being a Mum has been what I have done for the last 23 years and I've not just been a typical Mum, I've been a homeschool Mum wth a pretty tight knit bunch of kids who are all very capable and independent but who still need their parents from time to time. I'm also aware that our parents are not getting any younger. I'm the only surviving sibling to be there for my parents and that is very important to me. They are still in good health and not needing me yet but I also don't want to miss out on their good years. So this is where the pull wrenches me at times. Our eldest Son is also going to be returning to NZ in May and so that's one more child not with us. I know that for us to be here it needs to be a very very clear call of God and for now, that's what we have. As the months pass quickly we will need to sort out what happens once our visa comes to an end.
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